gonna get sushi today
I think i’ll drop music soon. Too many ideas sitting in a vault right now. Feeling very inspired, determined, and grateful.
Doing an opening set next week. That’ll be cool.
Supposed to go to amsterdam soon, hope that comes to fruition.
I dont like social media it makes me physically sick sometimes. Ill just delete it for weeks. Im in that phase right now where I dont want anything to do with it. However if I wanna drop music and get my art infront of poeple I have to be online. I probably just need to develop a healthier way to approach it. I have like 3 apps that lock me out of socials after a combined hour. Social media has a weird way of subconsciously bypassing your self control and making you a passive consumer.
i dont think were meant to be taking in the amount of things we do on a daily basis.
Ive almost bought a flip phone every few weeks for the past year. Honestly the day I look at my bank and have my basic needs met for 6-12 months, im instantly getting the dumbest phone you can buy. ill break out the old ipod for music and be chillin. reach me by email or carrier pigeon.
The internet is amazing. especially the connection and access it brings. i would rather give up sugar, carbs, diet coke. all my favorite things before i gave up youtube. i love youtube. id rather have access to youtube than tv shows. if i could have a flip phone, that only has calling ability, and youtube. boom, that be perfect.
The access has made us all entitled though. The internet has become more real than real life itself. People’s self worth determined by numerical values instead of the mosaic the comprises their soul. its strange. it also puts us all in a constant state of performance and competition. those things both exist in life regardless but they feel so amplified by social media.
I quit my job as a butcher, might get a job as a bartender. Might be a broke vagabond. Im cool with whatever. The more I chase something the further it seems to get. Money is a fleeting pursuit. Empty.
But then I gotta pay rent so , gotta make money.
Luckily ive been blessed with support around me, and the ability to support myself through things I create. Which is a really fulfilling life for me. If im able to live the way I live right now for the rest of my life, ill continue to be happy.
im not even gonna re read what i just wrote. originally i was just gonna make this post a list of things ive been watching and listening to. now you have to earn it by getting through the labrynth of rambling above.
heres media ive been enjoying.
music ive been listening to:
UK Postgame / samba jean-baptiste
Paces / feeble little horse
Baby Dont Hurt Me / Emma Ogier
Heartbeat / Curtis Mayfield
Racks Blue / Nine Vicious
Butterflies / Brent Faiyza
Tomorrow’s Crusades / Geese
The Moon Cave / Gorillaz
More Than this / Roxy Music
Some Might Say / Oasis
GAMIN / Polami Roko
Dragon New Warm Mountain I believe in you / Big theif
The Coward Forgets his nightmare / Chanel beads
Couldn’t bear to be special / Prefab Sprout
things ive been watching:
invincible Season 4
Jujutsu Kaisen Season 3
South Park chanel is always on in my room on silent
Kung fu panda
Youtube channels:
medival mindsiet
Goobie and Doobie
Duncan Trussle Family hour
Horses
GDF
Veritasium
The Michael Parenti Library
Elisha Long
Joey The Gypsy
vvundertone
warfronts
fern
imperial
History Dose
Goblin
